Writing My Wrongs

Just had some Funyuns...
they fucked the top of my mouth up!
Hate when that happens.
That's why I don't eat CaptNCrunch anymore....

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Ok, this weekend is not playing out anything like I planned...FUCK!

I was suppose to start moving my shit slowly in...to make my escape. PJR calls me this afternoon and says that the guys are gonna START painting the apartment tomorrow so it wouldn't be ready for move in until next week. HUH? *blank stare*

I was suppose to have a "meeting" with someone that I had met before DipSet. I was digging him but DipSet came an bogart'd his way into my life...I ended up letting BikerBoy dissipate to...nothing. Well, on my trip to Boston 2 weeks ago...he gives me a call.

"Who is this? What? Oh BiiiikerBooooy. How are YOU doin'?" (that's in my best Joey Tribiani voice..lol)
Well, that lead to us talking every other day on the phone. He hasn't pressed me about what happened months ago, hasn't asked me any real personal questions...but it's the omition of certain topics that makes me know HE knows the situation. Plus, the fact that I am only available for his phone calls up until I reach the lobby of my building. It's been only on one rare occassion when I have spoke to him when at home...that's only 'cause DipSet hadn't made it home yet. Other than that...he doesn't call me after 6 (I didn't even have to tell him...he knows.) He aslo knows that I am going to be moving (from whereever it is that I live now *smile*), because he was on the phone with me when I was waiting on PJR.

RJ calls me and we talk about what we are doing tonight...told him I had nothing planned and that I was just gonna go home and be with booger-head....he said he wanted to get out after work...ME TOO! SO he mentions his new spot.....which will become MY new spot since I'll be living over there (heeheehee) I tell him I wanna go. Now I have to make 2 calls.

1st call: "Hey you, do we have plans tonight?" "No, why?" "I think I'mma hang out after work." "Spending your money again huh?" "NO!, just hanging out. Did you have plans for us?" "No." "Ok, I'll talk to you later." "Bye chuckles" I don't feel all that bad...well, not really. After all, RJ doesn't normally stay out late...and if it comes down to it...I'll hop my ass on Metro-North, although I know RJ won't let me do that. PLUS...since DIpSet has VERY casually met RJ...he happens to be the ONLY guy it's ok for me to hang out with.

2nd call: "Hey BB, call me when you get this message. I am going to have to cancel for tonight. Weeelllll, just call me when you get this and maybe we can squeeze some time in. Ugh! That sounded fucked up huh?"

Call back: "Hey Bloopty" "What's up Yo?" He laughs at that. "So, I am not going to see you tonight?" "No, but can we meet tomorrow for brunch...@ 11?" "I want to see you." "You will baby, but not tonight. Put a smile on my face and tell me you'll meet me tomorrow....I really want to see you..." He chuckles. "You know your gonna see me tomorrow. You try and cancel on me and I am coming to find you." "That's gonna be easy...'cause I'm not trying to hide from you baby." He chuckles. "You know you always make me blush. Stop it." "But you like it, why stop?" He laughs again. "I'll talk to you tomorrow baby!"

I hang up and pat myself on the back...... Man, this flirty repetoire reminds me that I AM GOOD AT THIS SHIT! lol I'm not trying to run game...just want him to feel like he wasn't put on the back burner...although he was. I'll text him later to send him a reminder for tomorrow. Giving him a sense that even though I blew him off (not THAT blow off) he is still being thought of.

So it's to Eugene Monroe's....Billy Fro's...some place that RJ has me going. I like hanging with this guy...why? 'Cause he's my friend. Honestly, just a friend...fuck what you heard!! lol He always has good conversation, I don't feel uncomfortable, I don't feel like I have to entertain him, cater to his man-ness. Because we. are. freinds. So yes, on a day like today when I am feeling happy, feeling casual, feeling like laughing and having a good time.....I put off my current, put off some potential and hang out with someone that is better than all that...a reliable. I'd prefer that any day, over the unsure thing I walk in the door to every night and the unknown of reserve.

I thought that DipSet was working nights all this weekend. NOT. He works 7-3 Sat and Sunday throwing off my...groove thang. Just when I am starting to warm up to the day...get the sleepy outta my eye...I gotta go pick up this man. Doesn't mess up my day...but what starts out as a good day...can usually go to hell in a hand basket with the quickness once he gets in the truck. I'mma have to be nice to this man...not that I DON'T WANT to be nice to him...would love to be nice to him...but sometimes that man makes me wanna seriously do some damage to his bodily parts.

We will see how Saturday and Sunday go...going to Venom's Kappa fundraiser event thingy...

Food for thought on the weekend:
Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you but trusting them not to!