Writing My Wrongs

I made a doctors appointment for Wednesday @ 2:00 PM

DipSet has been wanting to have sex without a condom. For awhile. I have been shooting him down with the most obvious excuse....

I am not on birth control.

This sensible excuse has not deterred him from still wanting to go "jimmy-less". He use to always say he wanted another girl...by me. I told him that wasn't going to happen and to keep stepping if he thought I was going to have anymore kids spitting out of me. So he has calmed down on that. Yet, his "wanting to cum in me"...has not.

Two things come to mind, concerning this man in me without a condom....
1- I don't trust him.
2- I've only known him for 5 months and only been sexing since December.

So I have come up with one excuse after another...
-Switched insurance, waiting for it to go into effect
-Doctor had to cancel my appointment and reschedule
-Doctor had to cancel my appointment and reschedule
-Doctor had to cancel my appointment and reschedule...lol
-I forgot my appointment
-A meeting ran over and I couldn't get to my appointment

Well...my time has come for me to REALLY go to the damn doctor and get some birth control pills...or patch...or IUD...or whatever gadget they have right now that will stop babies from being made. It almost feels like I am on my way to the guillotine.... dead man walking...lol

Should I be this....scared to have sex without a condom, with the man I live with?