Writing My Wrongs

I need to leave the country tonight somehow, some way. I may be, quite possibly looking for something that I thought I didn’t even believe in anymore…and it’s quite possible that fanciful dreams of love and chemistry and attraction are manifesting themselves in people I can’t have for the same reasons that I need them… which is difficult to explain and even more difficult to live with…because I am fighting myself in not trying to understand it because…well, just because…it’s going to require more that I have to give, more than I am willing to give myself right n